places i've come to fear the most

"...giving up the hope that the past could have been any different." Oprah said that. I guess I can relate to that...So many things have been done and there's nothing more you can do to undo them. That's how it is. And I'm trying so so so hard to be the person I used to be. And I fear of going home 'coz I might not be able to deal with my own emotions. Memories, and things...I just hate to face the pain again...or has it gone?...I guess what i'm trying to say is that, I missed the life I once had with my mother....