Thursday, December 28, 2006

the darkest thought

Losing a precious person becomes the saddest thing to imagine. And a lot of people have no idea how to deal with that. It's so ironic that most of the people in this earth have accepted the idea that there's a time for us to leave, that it's just a matter of time...and yet, they become crippled when dear ones left them behind.

For a moment, they feel like their soul has also been taken away by death...the truth is, what really kills your soul in not the death alone, but the memories...everyday, flashes of familiar face, voice you can't hear, and the presence you can never feel, keep stabbing your whole being until they reach the core of your heart and form a hollow there...hollow that can never be filled in.

People form a silly idea that the one that's left always there. But in the end, that thought just leaves you doubtful. A few says, that if someone believes there's life after death, then there's no reason to be sad about...but how can you possibly hold on to that?


Many would say, this too shall pass...it supposed to mean what?? Do they mean, pain? emptiness?? It is hurtfully appalling to hear someone say that. No matter how you see things in a different perspective, at the end of the day, it's all coming back. And what really sucks is that, there's no way for you to ignore it. It's just there. Pain and grief has overwhelmed your spirit.

People see you smile for a while. But can they really see you?

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